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3 months to go

After almost 2 years in the making, my countdown has finally begun. In 3 months time, I shall be setting off into the unknown...well, the Philippines & then the rest of the planet. My dad keeps telling me not to quit. I'm almost afraid to buy my plane ticket because that will almost certainly guarantee my departure. My stomach is beginning to have crazy nervous churnings. Can I really do this? Am I really doing this? What if some freak accident happens right after I turn in my 2 week notice or before my trip starts? I don't have local insurance. I'd be screwed!

A couple of things happened though that I will take as a sign. My workplace is moving. My boyfriend got a job out of state. Both of those are once in a blue moon occurrence. I think the stars are aligning for this one.

If all goes according to plan, I'd have a lot of fun for the next 1-2 yrs. I'd leave a little bit of buffer money for when I get back & start job hunting. Hopefully my other business ideas come into fruition & I won't have to desperately job hunt too soon.

This all makes me think of movies like Oceans 11 where mastermind characters somehow manage to predict every single scene & every characters reaction in orchestrating heists or what not. A lot of people don't bother planning ahead because they think there's too many variables, too many factors. Anyway, as an architect (not as a criminal mastermind) I've gotten used to planning. Surprisingly, things for the most part do turn out the way you'd expect. I'm feeling very much in charge of my own life right now. I know a lot of people with a passive approach of just accepting what life offers them. A lot of them wonder how on earth they got to where they are right now. For me, its really no mystery. You either master your own ship or just let the tides sweep you to wherever.

The unknown future seems exciting & mysterious, but in my case, unless I plan ahead (at least the next 3 yrs)- I get long stretches of boring nothing. Scratch that- I guess for most people the future is not really unknown. There's school, a job, mortgage, marriage, kids, retirement. I've gone about halfway through that only to find that the age old prescribed life doesn't really work for me (& a lot of folks my generation). Solo travel gave me some time for introspection. Maybe the time to get married & have kids will come to me someday, but for now- I know that traveling is definitely what I'm supposed to be doing.

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